I changed my availability at work today, so I can work closing shifts-I went from 10:30-8 to 11-11 all week. I think that works because I have some non-closing hours available, but I can close. Plus, 11-11 means my shifts will never be less than 12 hours apart which helps with the anxiety.
Up next is getting of the Xanax. In a perfect world, I'd be off of it when we go to St Louis in June, but we'll see. I just don't like using it for long periods of time, because I don't want it to be a crutch. If I go off it and it turns out I wasn't ready or I need it, fine, but I want that chance to see how good I'm doing without the pill.
I think this is because Xanax is the only pill I don't need to be on-I need the Prisiq, Wellbutrin and Trazodone. I've been without any med s and it only fun if you like suicidal thoughts and that feeling that bugs are crawling out of your skin.
But I feel like I'm going up. I finally have a good Dr + therapist combo, I'm getting lots of sleep and exercising frequently-which is helping the sleep plus its nice to have 25ish minutes a day when I don't have to think, I just think about the walking, the music.
...plus its almost baseball season, so that's going to bring up my mood.
